SUMMER IS OFFICIALLY HERE. AND I CAN FEEL IT IN MY BONES.

ITS TIME TO EAT BREATHE AND FEEL SUMMER.

So this weekend were having a tiki time party and it makes me happy to have us all together playing and celebrating summer time.

This is the probably going to be the last summer we will all be in LA…
Natalie is going to London and who knows if shes coming back.
Leah'S in Washington DC
Im moving to downtown.
And becky is in SD.!

Crrrazzzzy! =(
GROWING UP IS CRAZY. BUT WHATS TO COME IS GOING TO BE REALLY GOOD. I

CAN FEEL IT.

Gearing up!

i want to make a drum like this one by Robert Davidson:

As summer approaches I need to organize and rethink how I will spend my days of sun and fun.

I only have a limited time before I jump into 18 months of focused and intense school work. I need a summer of peace, creating fun and establishing my inner Zen.

I plan to take summer school and quit my job.

I will be in summer school Monday- Thursday..

Sunday/Monday will be my extreme focus days and study days.. but

Thursday is going to be my designated art day! Paint/ create/ and have art parties.!

All sorts of arts and crafts!

Every Thursdays no excuses= time to tap into artistic fun..

If need be Friday will be a study day/ beach day..

And every weekend I need to visit friends I haven’t seen for awhile!

I need to camp!

And I want to go to Europe again but I think I will be out of money so maybe a trip up the coast will be bomb!.. like even into Canada..

john trudell...

totally inspiring!! love love love him!..

i am jealous of ppl not in school and who dont have a job.

Too much to do!! . such little time.!!

What I want to do and what I need to do.. r so different!.



I need 5 days to play catch up and to not have to do anything... but have my to do list.

A good 10,000 would be good too.



Pshh.. I can dream all I want .. but I really need to get to work!

Making contact with the dead.

I have butterflies in my head and in my stomach.


I went to Palm Springs and lived happily in an amazing land. Alex and Devon’s vacation house is absolutely amazing!


Back to reality: When I came home I was quickly bombarded with school work and then the past slapped me in the face.


Coachella was an adventure.. Running through dirt and mud. Sleeping on the grass in the parking lot and squeezing 3 people in a 2 seater sports car! Amazing!
Usc: is almost here as along as I pass Chem misery! This weekend I am getting to business and learning chem.! I need to get an A on my test on Monday!
Lack of sleep still occurring.
Losing my cell phone.. an adventure
Strange stomach illness. Still taking place..

My horoscope: Although you are fairly optimistic today about your long-term plans, more immediate problems could create some anxiety. You know there is a solution to the stress you feel between personal and professional matters, but it doesn't seem possible now to choose one over the other. Fortunately the larger issues will fall into place if you stay focused on what's right in front of you. Act locally while thinking globally.

take 5 steps forwards and 20 steps back in one minute

2 people
2 different walks of life
2 different minds
2 different experiences
1 thing in common.

Where is my spiritual advisor when I need you.
O wait we don’t live in a great society. I need a shaman. I really do.

Dr. everything will be alright.. I need you.

mtmg's new album out today!!!

this weekend... i will c them!! so excited! i can not wait! i am sneaking in to coachella like the sneaky bitch i am! ha..

i forgot how excited a southern guitar gets me..

You fall, my pride Don't ever need to apologize As your lips unfold Shakin' purple from the cold You better learn to crawl You better learn to crawl Before I walk away Before I walk away You broke my mouth The bloody bits are spittin' out Is your grave unscathed? The worm is countin' down the day He wants to see you crawl He wants to see you crawl Before I walk away Before I walk away The reds and the whites and abused The crucified USA As every prophecy unfolds Oh, hell is surely on its way The rat and the fly They're searchin' for an alibi As we wait the wrath They never went to Sunday mass They want to see us crawl They want to see us crawl Before they walk away Before they walk away The reds and the whites and abused The crucified USA As every prophecy unfolds Oh, hell is surely on its way

Sleep I miss you.. lets be friends and take over my body..

Basically.. i went to bed at 6 and woke up at 6:45!.. Hopefully this is the last weekend of my nonstop partying craze.. and i check back into reality.

Cabin fever bliss.

Being in the middle of mountains and snow and big trees made all warm inside.

The weekend was filled with laughter and fun.
I honestly laughed for 2 hours straight Sunday night at about 3 am.
The only downfall is that I am so sleep deprived it is not even funny. Lake Tahoe madness was amazing and I honestly I wish I was still there relaxing and playing and getting drunk. Ha.

I loved the snow.

The princess room/ the view.

The fact that me and leah dressed great for the snow.

The living room full of drugs.
The fire place.


The crisp air.

The fact that I learned I was out of shape by how bad I was huffing and puffing.

!!!!Tahoe I miss u!!!!!

I just love getting a bunch of ppl together and going on vacation. It makes me really happy.

I cant wait for the next trip and hopefully we can ALL be present!

yesterday doesn't matter and the future doesn't matter. its all about what is going on now in this very moment.

now is a submersion of books and pathogens and diseases and a slight distraction of art history and churches after churches are displayed in class while my mind keeps wandering. is this all true. what happened happened. when life slaps you in the face regardless if your prepared or not we just have to keep trucking. i have reached a point where i am ok. today is today. fuck what happened in the past its my job to make every minute count. lately i wish minutes were longer and life would just keep sending me blessings. but when you really think about any situation that your in. things could always be a lot worse. i am healthy and well and im working on being successful but really what is success and who measures it. i am the only one pushing myself and sometimes i push myself too much. im just learning how to relax and just take in all elements. i need to channel my talents and stop challenging myself. if it takes me a life to time to graduate it does and who cares. as long as i am happy. thats all that matters. the rain has been a blessing. the water is sooooo therapeutic. i dont know what i want in life right now but at the same time i like this unsure sense. this wondering whats next. i hope i just let go and have fun. not worry. just make my heart and soul happy. yay for uncertainty and a one week break from cramming!

next goal:

yoga instructor! i start in 2 months!!!